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( it's true, he doesn't want to think about their complicated start. honestly he is quickly verging on a path where he doesn't want to think about anything. a rarity for Matt, he spends too much time thinking and often times over thinking. right now, he's falling back to a place where he wants to feel and experience more than he wants to let his thoughts run in circles. carve out paths of blame and guilt that changed nothing and made him miserable. which is not to say he won't do that, at some point. he just doesn't mean to do it now.

Matt hadn't predicted how this conversation would go, though it's safe to say he hadn't expected it to go quite this far. he'd have assumed he didn't want intimacy so soon, while she was still fragile and they were still making sense of each other in a way they hadn't let themselves in years. right now, though, he's not at all interested in letting go, setting any more lines or restrictions. even if this is as far as they go, finding simple delight in the taste and touch of each other on his musty old couch like teenagers, he thinks he'll be content.

there's a hum of approval in the back of his throat as she presses forward, eliminating space between them. he's held her a few times since she stumbled to his door in a panic, though there's something to be said about being this close because they want to be, and not because she's terrified. his hands are determined to travel, because despite his explorative touches so far... he's far from content. one is tipped through the fine strands of her hair to hold her fast as he reminds himself of the taste of her mouth. the other tightens on her hipbone, just for a moment, before moving behind her to run the sharp notches of her spine. even through the thin fabric of his shirt, it's as familiar as running his fingers along piano keys. might seem like an odd touch, if it weren't also a familiar one. he has always been fixated on the strong muscle of her back, the narrow cut of her spine. )

[ when her hallucinations had been at their worst, the only thing that had made her feel safe was his touch. it had grounded her, broken through the dangerous, vivid images, sounds, and pain to bring her back enough to reality to calm down. they've touched before then and since, but this is a different level of intimacy, one she's missed and craved, especially as they've grown close again.

there's a quiet noise of contentment from her throat as she feels his hand slip from gripping her hip to trace up her spine over her (his) shirt. her back straightens, hips rolling forward slightly as she shifts, her shoulders rolling back.

the fingers of the hand at the back of his hand twist into his hair, tugging lightly in encouragement. it has indeed gotten longer since they've arrived her, reminding her slightly of their earlier days, how his hair would get mussed and unruly during their sparring sessions or during sex. recalling that flushed, breathless excitement spikes her adrenaline and she deepens the kiss a little more before drawing her tongue back into her mouth, unleashing her teeth to nip lightly at his lower lip. ]

( it's a little like falling back through time, when everything seemed as easy as her kisses. as easy as loving her. he knows it isn't, anymore, there's so many complications he can't hardly name them all. so there's some reassurance in the fact wanting her is still so very simple.

there's at least some part of him that doesn't want to move too fast. she's plenty fragile still, whether she'd admit it or not. the rest of him is too indulgent of the closeness he's been mourning for a decade or so. it is hard to feel like there's harm in expressing what they feel in actions instead of words. in this instance, actions come a bit easier.

as he traces lovestruck patterns into her skin, even with the fabric between them, just enjoying the kiss for in an almost leisurely way. there's a hint of almost a smile at the pull of her teeth — something he's missed about Elektra is that she's never been afraid to brace her sweetness with sharpness. she's never worried about what he can or can't handle, when most of the world can't help themselves.

finally he reaches up to pull her hair over her shoulder. his shirt is sagging loosely on her far smaller frame leaving plenty of skin easily available, and with the hair out of the way he places his mouth there instead, feeling the trill of her heartbeat. the heat of her skin and the subtle smell of her that hasn't changed as much as he'd have thought, considering their circumstances. he's gentle at first, hot presses of lips over her pulse and her clavicle, but without much in the way of warning his teeth catch, just for a moment.

it's not as if he feels sorry for it either, because he sucks it after. Matthew is a bit possessive, so sue him. he likes that he'll smell that blood under her skin, and the reminder that he put it there. )

[ as much as he likes her balance of sweetness and sharpness, she loves the moments when he gets a little dominant and possessive. a quiet gasp is emitted as his teeth mark her skin, heat flaring underneath his mouth as he sucks at the mark he's made, her heart beginning to beat that much quicker. her head tips back, exposing that much more skin to him, a wordless invitation for him to continue.

the hand still at her side, tracing love notes over her body, is reached for with her hand twisting behind her back, and she captures his fingertips with her own, squeezing lightly before she pulls it to her front and rests it on her thigh, just underneath the hem of his shirt. ]

( it's little surprise, then, that so much of their history is painted with her pushing him to be possessive. to break free from his meticulously organized control and grab what he wants with both hands, and fuck being gentle about it. it'd been a lot easier to inspire that when he was younger, now he realizes how dangerous it is for him to embrace. that it's too close to dancing with the devil, that when he lets himself be impulsive he spirals out of control. he's not the same kid that followed her into a stolen lambo or would willfully break into buildings anymore, Elektra has surely noticed that.

it doesn't mean that side of him is completely absent, though. it just means it's a little harder to push him that far. it has to be deserved — and a few months of sexual tension? it's deserved.

he doesn't make another, not at the moment. it'd be expected, and he likes when he can make her heartbeat race. make her breathe those delightful little exhales, the ones that make his hair stand up on end. that said the idea of marking her is clearly tempting, even if he won't be able to see any hickeys he leaves. all the more reason to make more, it'll be easier for him to sense, to find whispers of himself still on her skin. )

I like you in my shirts. ( it's whispered against her skin, a breath against her jawbone. this isn't the first time she's wound up in something of his since they got here, but it's the first time he's let himself admit it. his hand pushes up her leg, toward her upper thigh, hooks at her hipbone as he rocks her back against him. ) I'd still like you better without it.

[ it's enticing, the ability to get someone usually so in control to let go and stop questioning the consequences and whether or not something should be done. it makes her feel powerful in a way that's proven dangerous in their past, something she knows she should keep in check now. but this is different, this feels safe. more importantly, it makes her feel alive again.

she doesn't know if it's the same for him. she hopes it is.

his mouth hovers over her skin, words and breath hot against her jawline, and her eyes close against the combined sensations of that and his hand pushing up her thigh. and before she knows it he's gripping her hip and pulling her forward, and her eyes reopen, fluttering slightly as she settles into her altered position, grinding down onto his lap. ]

So take it off. [ a smile blooms on her lips. ] Unless you want me doing all the work.

Edited 2019-12-03 01:56 (UTC)

( she does make him feel alive, though, not exactly in the same way. Matt doesn't feel his death as keenly as Elektra, he faded away after taking a few too many hits. suffering a little too much in silence, and refusing to admit how far he'd fallen until it was too late. he doesn't have a battle scar to remind him of what happened to him, it hardly feels real at the best of times, even though the fact they've died is impressed on them fairly constantly.

it's more that Elektra has always made him feel alive. she's always dragged up parts of him that Matthew has consistently tried to silence. she made him feel alive in that he could be his entire self when he was with her, not just the polished and charming parts, but the damaged and dangerous and violent parts too. it's hard not to feel alive when so often he lives half a life, half an existence for the comfort and simplicity it offers. being with Elektra is complicated, it's like traversing a landmine of their past and emotions and fears. but it's also the most whole, most complete, he's ever allowed himself to be. )

When have I ever complained about you doing all the work? ( he enjoys having her on top, even though usually they're battling for that position of control. they wouldn't be them if they didn't.

he nips at the smile curling at her mouth, mostly because he can't help himself, but after that his fingers knot in his own shirt to pull it up and off of her. it's loose enough that it's not even that difficult, and she doesn't have to worry about the cold, because about a second after it skirts off her skin he twists to press her into the couch, his body sealed against hers and her legs still hiked on either side of him. the bed just seems too far away at present. it's easier to reach her and to feel her when she's underneath him, and it just seems fair to get to be on top for a little while. his hand is free now slip up her side and curl around her breast, even as his mouth lingers under her jaw. mostly because he likes to feel any breath and gasp directly under his lips. )

[ if she'd helped him feel alive, he'd helped her feel at all. not many of the people in her life (hello, stick) had done much to make her feel like she was anything but a tool. whatever happened between them, whatever happens in the future, she'll always love him for that. ]

Never. [ but things are different. their dynamic is different, even though they haven't actually changed that much. they've just been made aware of things they hadn't known about before.

he makes quick work of the shirt and before she knows it, he's reversed their positions, pinning her beneath his weight on the couch. her thighs tighten around his hips as his hand skims up her side and she arches into his touch as he cups her breast, exhaling roughly against his cheek. ]

( her body reacts so easily, the strong press of her muscle at his sides is instantly familiar and all at once, a little foreign. it honestly might be too soon for this, even if they've probably been skirting around wanting to for months. still, when what pushed them into this moment is the idea of making the most of what time they have... well, taking things slow just for the sake of it would be a waste of it.

they had impressed on each other the importance of honesty, of saying what they were thinking and saying what needed to be said. he thinks if this is too much for her, she'll tell him, with words or with her body. right now neither are telling him to stop, and even if maybe that would be smarter, he can't make himself want to just for the sake of it.

Matt incredibly sensory, the more the better. it's enjoyable to touch her, he has always enjoyed exploring her body and making a map of it with his hands. it wouldn't be quite the same without the sharp exhale, so close to his ear. it hits him harder than just feeling her ever could, an electric current down his spine. he ducks his head to press his mouth to her throat, the hand at her breast pressing for just a heartbeat before he releases again, thumbs at her nipple in more of a tease than the grab. )

[ she's not about to. the only thing that's kept her from doing this so far, from doing so much as kissing him, is the belief that he hadn't wanted to. now that she knows he does, that he has, she's not interested in slowing down or holding back.

his thumb circles her nipple as his mouth finds her throat, and the sensations combined make her moan lowly, hips pushing up and into his, rubbing herself against his groin. she can feel his excitement and she grinds harder in response to it, the skin between her legs going slick with want. ]

You can do better than that. [ her voice is rough, husky with desire, but there's amusement in the challenge and even some sincerity. she doesn't want either of them to hold back. ]

( Elektra gets a harsh breath in response to the heady rock of her hips. he presses back almost on instinct, and it's pulling him out of the careful restraints he usually likes to operate under. of all things he laughs at her taunting — he's so used to her pushing and pulling at every inch of him, physical and emotional and everything else. it's refreshingly familiar for her to goad him on now.

can he do better? maybe. does he want to tear her to pieces just for the fact he can? not quite, at the same time. they have enjoyed their fair share of rough sex, but it's not what he's aiming for here, which might frustrate her a little... which is not exactly something Matt is against, either. Elektra is used to demanding what she wants and getting it as close to instantly as possible. of course he'd enjoy being the antithesis to that. )

Hmm, ( is the lackluster answer provided against the tawny gold of her skin, but her taunting does earn a tighter squeeze of her breast. ) The least time I had you like this was a decade ago. I'm not in any hurry. ( he wants to remember it all, savor it all, and she's not going to goad him into breaking that fixation... well, she's not going to break him quite that easily, anyway. he leans a little to tug at the waistband of her leggings, and he's quite grateful that they're easier to convince off of her than the tight jeans and dresses she used to fancy. if she'll lift up her hips to help him, anyway. )

[ he's got a point. even when she'd come back into his life, when they were working together against the yakuza and then the hand, she'd made the declaration that they shouldn't involve sex and meant it. his involvement with karen aside, she hadn't wanted complicate things any further than they already were. it was more important to her that he trust her again, especially after he'd saved her life. she doesn't know what would have happened if she'd survived that last battle on the rooftop, if that's something they would have jumped into right away or if they'd have to move past the years and dishonesty first.

they'll never know for sure, and in the end it doesn't really matter.

her spine arches into the rough of his touch and her head tilts to nip at his jawline, her teeth dragging lightly along the skin. her hips lift easily to accommodate him and she kicks as he drags the fabric down her legs, ridding herself of them as quick as she can. ]

( the leggings pull free easily, thankfully. he remembers another lifetime where he'd have to battle her clothing almost as much as he had to battle her, and the way she'd laugh and pull his hair as he struggled with the tight fabric. he remembers the sharp way her breath would catch when he eventually gave up and tore it open. she's always been fond of an undercurrent of roughness, and he doesn't think it's because she just likes the violence.

he thinks it's the urgency, that he wants her so badly he'll tear at whatever is in the way, that he'll push harder than he realizes just in his insistence.

there's something a little quieter in the undercurrent now. it's been a long time since they've been together like this, and they were practically different people. Matt doesn't want to fuck her, and he's beyond the hopeless fool that had grabbed for any closeness she'd offer, desperate to be close to someone that understood him. no, this is started on equal footing, with far more running through the moment than just lust and need. enough that a race to the finish just won't be good enough, not when there's so much of her he's missed and yearned for.

it means that even though he's got her mostly naked, once the leggings are disposed of on the floor, he just returns to lean against her fully, head turning to catch the mouth that's nibbling at his skin. the friction that the closeness provides as she shifts in his lap is just part of it — truthfully, mostly he just wants to kiss her, run his hand along the bare skin of her leg, and memorize the way her breathing changes as he touches her. )

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